yeah I haven't written here for a while... I was writing on blogspot and blog.pl instead. Dunno why... sometimes I feel those officially isolated places are better than here. Well... I'm stressed recently... I know that because again I'm clutching my jaw while sleeping which is NOT good :/ I mean nothing really happens... I'm just worried about the thesis I am supposed to write this year and about still being very single. And it is really urging problem somehow... I'm having all those dream about some guys wanting to like go on a date with me, but there are always some problems and I'm waking up with this anxiousness then. I know, very ORZ. 

I went to the wedding yesterday. And I was honestly happy for my friend and his wife, because there're a perfect match! Both of them are so good and nice that they deserve to be together. But you know, all this wedding atmosphere is not easy when you're not having any perspectives for one yourself. I even lost appetite! I mean on a wedding! All this good and luxurious food! Well, at least I didn't get stuffed like a pig hehe. I'm back to my exercise plan (at least 4 times a week for 1 hour) but not perfectly to my diet plan. 

About the diet thing... I realized that I don't need to BE ON diet, I need to CHANGE my diet. And that's what I will try to apply in my life now. And going out more. I must admit last week adoration of 4 American teenagers in department store was pretty heart-warming :D or the dancing and cheek-pecking from "Micheal Jackson" too. Though both most probably happened because I'm white. 

:)

Muka

Yeah, I'm still on a diet. It's a little like a war with myself... to prove I can do it, that if I want something strong in my mind, my body will obey. As you can see turtle is halfway to it's treasure:D





Go turtle Go!!! I'm thinking... I found a way to loose all the kg I need and be really slim, like I've never been before in my life... it would take around 1 year I think... for one year almost no sweets, salt and bread... only from time to time. I really want it... but I wonder if it's possible. Now it seems possible, but seriously only 1 week passed (though hard week).

the other thing... 大野智! Ah... I'm all in love again:D this weekend was a fan girl weekend~ all because of the fan cam video (hallelujah to fans who are doing illegal fan cams because thx to them we can see what JE doesn't let us see legally) of "Song for me", Ohno's solo song from the latest album "TIME". I fell in love with the song with the first listening, and the dance... so Ohno's like... perfect! Awesome. Somehow watching it makes me so touched, because I really like him, not like a teenager loves her idol, just I wish him all the best, I want him to be happy and appreciated by everyone, so no one would make fun of him, because his JE boy band idol. It's easy for others to do that, without even trying to see his talent. He's really great person. And I hope he has a girl friend that he is happy with!

My Taiwanese professor wrote to me again, saying he's looking forward to seeing me in his Institute next year. It's so cool to be wanted by a professor :) It makes me feel assured:)

Muka